So to be a natural self, a authentic self, you must let go of your ego, what you mask yourself with, what you hide behind when you are insecure and unsure. To find the natural self, the source of your being, you must plug yourself into the universe and that entails a great deal of trust (and if you can't trust yourself, who can you trust?) Confidence, true trust, has nothing to do with ego or one's insecurities which are conditioning and habit or fears. Oh, I assure you, old Soo has plenty of times she falls off the wagon of trusting in the Universe that all is as it should be. My letting go is one of grasping, letting go and re-grasping again, multiplicities of times! I am not there yet, not all ways, but it is a path that I take and what makes me think that there is light at the end of these tunnels (of vision) that my inner eyes see.
Osho, a teacher of mine, says that Letting Go is a process of being watchful, of being aware that we fall back into old patterns and just by being watchful (and aware) of these habits, we can free ourselves and be our natural selves, without the burdens of insecurity and fear:
To let go, to live without the fears of being who I am is a constant challenge for me. I am constantly reminded of who I am (in others opinions and perspectives) and what it is that I do to them (which I have no control over for I don't do to them, they do to them and then blame someone for doing whatever it is they then adopt as an attitude.) Letting go of my fears about me and who and what I am and do is an ongoing process. Compassion must be key for me for if I am (and I am) an emotional being, I am affected by the vibes around me and what it is that I say that triggers a reaction from those in my sphere. If I was to be unkind or unloving or just angry and mean, this would harm me more than anyone else. This I know and that I think goes a long ways towards me being me and letting go of all the rest..."This time don’t make the same mistake again. Remain watchful and go on in the same process of letting go. Your old patterns are also false; they will also disappear. If the let-go is complete it will leave you in your natural self, in your authentic being. And to me that is the beginning of self-realization, the beginning of your enlightenment.
But it can begin only when you have found the natural source of your being. Your pretended selves, your hypocrite patterns, your masks — they cannot become enlightened. Only your original face can become enlightened. So to be original and natural is the most important thing for a traveler on the path."
Source – Osho Book “Light on the Path
