well nobody ever gave me a koan
Once, when a monk asked Joshu, "What is the meaning of Bodhidharma's coming from the West?" he replied, "The oak tree in the garden." Traditionally, students have tried to answer this koan by becoming that oak tree. But that's all wrong. The oak tree - or Jane's redwood - must become us.
i mean no zen teacher
no "joshu" no "bodidharma" no "MU" no nada
i have done dokusan with three zen teachers
one told me to meditate with this sanctum
"taking in the breath, i recieve the gift of life"
"breathing out the breath, i give thanks for the gift of life"
stuck with me, but no satori
except when i can still breathe
and the crazy wisdom master dude bellowed at me,
"WHAT CAN I DO FOR YOU!?"
and i basically told him i was beyond repair,
just need a conversion, not reform
incorrigible
but he was cool and friendly and spoke to me in friendly tones after that
and the last zen teacher just looked at me with a funny smile
until i trashed the dokusan room and left
so hey
commence tai chi
there's a shambhala meditation center in san antone
if i was there i would check it out
life itself is always encroaching on whatever self-contained world we try to set up and hold on to.
hope a tree grows up by your shack
but not in the middle of it\
jodoo beck everyday mind
just did a 30 credits review of cancer nursing
heavy smoke here from georgia wildfires
tropical depression in the gulfstream
not smoking pot
rattling my ghastly chains
amen
got sopme bugler golds outside
it will make me sick but no need for the pot
except for to puke in.
i want clarity
and have got to get there
it's moulting tyme