crazy girl

[Axanderdeath]

(note. the girl I told not to call me I had been calling alot. I had just told her not call back.)



the coffee house across the street is nice. A crazy girl grabed my arm and ran her fingers through my hair. SHe said I looked sad and should smile more.
-emm
I said. then I smiled. playing the tourted soul. playing the lonesome troubled man looking for love. A fixer upper. one of my buddies is trying to get her. I can not do anything. I am sure she was flirting hardcore with me.
I told the other girl to never call me agian and the next day she calls me.
-I am confused. Are you confused.

-make up your mind. This is driving me nuts.

-what are you doing.

-working at 10 why?

-what would you think if I came down.

-it would have to be soon I work at 10.

-I am confused. are you?

-I am frustrated. I told you not to call me. That I really like you and this shit hurts me. The next day you call me. I can't always be thinking about this.

-why do you have to feel so cold.

-what are you going to do?

-I might come down. Are you confused.

-frustrated.

she came down and she sat in her car and tryed not to make eye contact becuase I would make a face to make her smile. she told me about a shrink appointment she wants me to go to. I agreed. I tell her I will go but I am expecting sex at some point. she asks me if that is all I want. I tell her I like sex, and could get sex other places. I ask her if that would make her jealouse, and she says she does not know. I ask her if hse is afriad Of loseing the upper hand--she says that is not a fair question...

[joel]

it's never fair to force someone to plead the fifth. we all know pleading the fifth is the same as pleading guilty. but then again, it's never fair to censor; censors are people who think they know more than others should. catch 22. life's not fair; answer the question.